Ugh, what is that stench, it’s so fucking strong. I can feel my nose crinkle with every wift. It’s vaguely familiar. Ahh, it’s the fucking smell of a hospital room! Confusion quickly consumed me, why does my bedroom smell like a hospital 🤔 && why does my chest feel like a bullet pierced thru it… Continue reading Fight to live is exhausting 😮💨🥱
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A lost soul 😩
The fear from my cardiologists voice sent chills down every millimeter of my body. Have you ever had a moment where it feels like you’re standing outside of your actual body and you’re just standing there staring at yourself? If not, it’s a fucking wild experience to go through. I felt like I was looking… Continue reading A lost soul 😩
So heartless 🩸🔪❤️
Lifeless. Fuck, I can’t move, the ice, just inches away, my chest, my chest needs it. Roll on your side Jess, you can do this. Jess, just fucking move. The fuck, the fuck is this pain. Fuck, it hurts. Scream, do that, you can do that. Can’t breath, I’m drowning within my own lifeless body.… Continue reading So heartless 🩸🔪❤️
It’s okay to not be okay 🤙
Sigh…Breathing in so deep trying to rid that feeling of fucking defeat is gut wrenching. Chest weighing heavy with the deep breath in, trying to hold it for a second, but yet it seems to be so hard to take a deep breath in. Yet it still isn’t enough. Do you ever just feel so… Continue reading It’s okay to not be okay 🤙
Heart surgery, sure no problem💪
Reality. There’s nothing like flat lining on the operating table, hello reality check. “She’s back, we got sinus rhythm.” It’s like a damn episode of Grey’s Anatomy. Strapped down, flat on my back, looking around like a dumbass, as if I could really see anything around me. Shit, they’re talking about me. Confused momentarily, what… Continue reading Heart surgery, sure no problem💪
Precious Heart 