The fear from my cardiologists voice sent chills down every millimeter of my body. Have you ever had a moment where it feels like youâre standing outside of your actual body and youâre just standing there staring at yourself? If not, itâs a fucking wild experience to go through. I felt like I was looking… Continue reading A lost soul đ©
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So heartless đ©žđȘâ€ïž
Lifeless. Fuck, I canât move, the ice, just inches away, my chest, my chest needs it. Roll on your side Jess, you can do this. Jess, just fucking move. The fuck, the fuck is this pain. Fuck, it hurts. Scream, do that, you can do that. Canât breath, Iâm drowning within my own lifeless body.… Continue reading So heartless đ©žđȘâ€ïž
Itâs okay to not be okay đ€
SighâŠBreathing in so deep trying to rid that feeling of fucking defeat is gut wrenching. Chest weighing heavy with the deep breath in, trying to hold it for a second, but yet it seems to be so hard to take a deep breath in. Yet it still isnât enough. Do you ever just feel so… Continue reading Itâs okay to not be okay đ€
Heart surgery, sure no problemđȘ
Reality. Thereâs nothing like flat lining on the operating table, hello reality check. âSheâs back, we got sinus rhythm.â Itâs like a damn episode of Greyâs Anatomy. Strapped down, flat on my back, looking around like a dumbass, as if I could really see anything around me. Shit, theyâre talking about me. Confused momentarily, what… Continue reading Heart surgery, sure no problemđȘ